My primary animal totem (also known as a “fetch” in the Norse Tradition) is the horse. One way of knowing which animal is a primary totem (other animal spirits can also occasionally reach out), is to encounter it constantly, whether in dreams, imagery, or unexpected real life interactions.
I often find horse shapes in many things, especially clouds and leaf patterns in trees. It’s also common for me to find shapes in food; one remarkable example, was finding a nearly perfect horse head shape in a cup of vanilla ice cream (reminiscent of a chess piece). Considering how valuable the horse is to me in artistic inspiration, it is not surprising that I encounter my primary animal spirit on a nearly daily basis.
Though I identify as Lokean, I retain some eclectic spiritual practices, including my early Celtic Pagan path; I consider the Celtic Equine Goddess, “Epona”, as a patroness who keeps me inspired artistically. The Norse God Loki is also associated with horses (as are other figures of the Nordic Pantheon), so my patron is quite compatible with my Celtic roots.
I have often felt that, without horses, I would lose so much creative inspiration, if not all of it. I can understand how artists of all sorts have been inspired by equines over many centuries; their graceful forms and many colors fascinate me greatly, just as they have many artists before me.
It is said that one will exhibit characteristics (mainly via mannerisms) of their primary totems; I admit to being hypersensitive, and my reflexes are quick (much like an equine), and studying the instincts and behaviors of this animal has also given me a better understanding of my own nature. Artistic ability provides my strongest connection to my primary totem, but the connection runs deeper in other ways.